تنفس انفرادی

حقیقت آن است که از آدم های اطرافم خیلی زود خسته می شوم،و احتمالا آنها هم خیلی زود از من خسته می شوند. حرف ها، اعمال وآمالشان خیلی با من همسو نیست. من چه کسی هستم که قضاوت کنم؟ من فرسنگ ها از اریکهِ ی حکم راندن برای دیگران فاصله گرفته ام. تنها می توانم بگویم من و این جریان به دو سوی مختلف در حرکت هستیم. نه من راضی می شوم که ه اجتماع بپیوندم نه    

   اجتماع تمایلی به این دارد خود را با این کلمات از حوزه ی رضوان دور نماید

In the distance, in the night, shadows engange the light.

Winds waft their spirits vibrancy.

Lay down and cloth the world into eternal glory of darkness.

(Darkened Nocturn Slaughtercult)

I Squashed Yesterday!

On Thursday (September 13th) i played squash. It was cool, just the same old problem with my quadriceps. I tend to compromise. It was good to blast to the court,  just after what i went through on wednesday. It reinvigorate the fighting attitude in me. Only if I could squash all yesterdays!

Tuesday: Shoulders And Giants

I walked about 6.4 km today (September 11th ). The weather was excellent. It was dark when i started at 6:50. I focused to keep a constant pace and rhythm. Secondly i had to change my breathing. I listened to "Collapse Under The Empire" and 3 tracks of "Les Discrets" from the 2010 album "Septembre et ses Dernieres Pensees".  Post-Rock sound is really fantastic for walking/running. Last week i listened to "Crippled Black Phoenix" and "If These Trees Could Talk". Those were fantastic too.

These Days

Well, these days are tough, not so productive, and so on. Actually i didn't expect an easy way. So there I am. I've chosen and i take the full responsibility of all I've done. I'm human and mistakes are inevitable. I've chosen. I'm alone because I've chosen to be alone. I have to work hard, because I've chosen someplace to reach. I risked nearly everything, all friends, family, connections. I put aside. I've chosen to listen to my inner child. These days some sweet distant murmurs pierce my solitude. This life is baffling me!