Grains of Sand Through Open Fingers

Q.Just some simple questions...
A.yup, normal stuff!
Q.How is it here?
A.you mean being alive?
Q.No, i mean being here! this institute!
A.awful, i assume if it wasn't my daughter i had never came
Q.you're married?
A.No.
Q.How old is your daughter?
A.She's awesome, so intelligent, so cute, pitiful thing
Q.why?
A.Too young her age to bear this load of shit
Q.How do you mean? how do you define this burden?
A.You know what i mean!Kids with high IQ are destined to suffer more, deeper and longer. As soon as they realize the earth and their standpoint, hell of an evolution
Q.Ah, evolution, that was interesting.
A.Big word for my mouth?
Q.Not at all, After all i know where you've came from...
A.Seems you've gone through my trash!
Q.I'd like to know you better, i'm here to help...
A.OK,OK
Q.What's your opinion about Darwin's theory of evolution?
A.Yes, i found it quite logical: you'll survive i'll die
Q.Pardon?Why you and why me?
A.Cuz i epitomize all the weak hinges of nature.
Q....And i epitomize all the powerful?
A.The authority, the control, the questioning
Q.That's exciting, you know personally i'd rather stay silent and listen to others speaking.
A.To other's misery?
Q.Mysteries i call, everyone is a pack of unknown features in my opinion
A.Sounds you've got an angle!(smiles)
Q.That's how it is.
A.I understand.
Q.Do you dream these days?
A.Frequently.
Q.Like what?Cab you describe them?
A.Usual stuff.
Q.Like everyday affairs? Your job? Office?
A.Nope, usual stuff like a mother, like a cool breeze of compassion, Dreams have remained a clean part of my diary. very basic things.
Q.I see. Do you like watching tv?
A.(yawns)
Q.mmm...How do you prefer to finish this conversation?
A.How about a poem?
Q.Wow, awesome!
A.How about this one:
"I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?  "
Q.Till next sunday.




pedram, Marh 2012
poem : Edgar Allan Poe

مشتی شن از میان انگشتان گشوده

نویسنده خمیازه ای عصبی می کشد و بعد یک باره بر می گردد و رو به استاد می کند.

نویسنده : {آهسته} می دانید، چیزی که درباره ی رفتن به "منطقه" گفتم ، همه دروغ بود. منبع الهام برود به درک ... اما چطور می شود چیزی را که می خواهم ، بشناسم یا نامی بهش دهم؟ و چطور بگویم که در واقع شوقی به آن چیز ندارم؟ یا چیزی را می خواهم که در واقع نمی خواهم اش؟ بعضی چیز ها چنان مبهم اند که نمی توان نامی بر آن ها گذاشت. معنی شان محو می شود ، از بین می رود، ذره ذره تمام می شود ، درست مثل مشتی شن از میان انگشتان گشوده . {مکث می کند} وجدان من تمایل دارد که گیاه خواری همه گیر شود: در سراسر دنیا . اما ضمیر ناخوداگاهم حسرت طعم یک تکه گوشت آبدار دارد. پس من درواقع چه می خواهم؟ 

از فیلم نامه استاکر ، نوشته ی آندری تارکفسکی

A Morose Story

 

"Let the accidents lead you

And let cool heavenly breeze inspire you

And let your soul float in peaceful rhythm of today

Let's wait for the day to come

The day destined to delight you"

Destiny is blind,

To embellish our failure,

To cover all the shortcomings,

we decided to deceive ourselves,

Falling into decades of passiveness...

Decades of insanity,

Decades of immaculate docility. 

Let the accidents lead your life

And they will suck you dry in blind alleys

And that's the morose story of 

The blind leading the blind. 

pedram 25 March

Learning Valuable Lessons

After nearly two decades' experience of European football, Gary Neville recognises the lessons being learned by United’s youngsters this season – and he tips them to benefit in the long-term…
I think the younger players in our squad will take a lot out of this season.The likes of Smalling, Jones, Rafael, Fabio, Cleverley and De Gea will learn some invaluable lessons. When I and the other young lads of the time started touring around Europe in our early days, we had it the same. In my first game, we were knocked out of Europe by Torpedo Moscow!

There’s a subtlety and an attention to detail you need in Europe. You’re talking about football where inches matter and being yards out of position matter, whereas the Premier League can be a little more forgiving. In Europe opponents are more ruthless, more clinical in front of goal and you can find that you have nobody to mark for large periods of the game because they try and play in-between you, so it’s great experience.

I remember it when we were young lads too; it’s just something you have to go through. We were taken to school for three years in Europe from 1996 through to 1999, particularly by Juventus at times, and these are the lessons that you can see being taught to some of our younger lads this year.

We’ve got a lot of youth in the squad – just look at the team that started against Ajax at Old Trafford – and this is a great learning curve for these ladsl. The manager has said this a number of times in the changing room down the years: whenever you think you’re doing ok in a European game, that’s the point to switch on, because you can find you’re doing well and suddenly you’ve gone from 1-0 up to 1-2 down in five minutes.

Even in my later years I was finding this out. I was playing in Munich in my mid-30s and we were coasting, and then I gave away a stupid handball on the edge of the area and they scored from the free-kick. Five minutes later they scored again and we lost a game we’d been comfortable in. Even in your mid-30s they still catch you out. You think of that Bayern Munich team we beat to win the Treble in 1999, it was one of the most experienced teams that has played in European competition, yet their world collapsed in three minutes.

It’s an underachievement when you get to three finals in four years, then don’t get past the group stage, but these are great experiences for the young lads. I wouldn’t be surprised if the manager picks a lot of them again against Bilbao, because they need the experience and also because the Premier League has to be the priority. The manager may think that we may as well go to school in Europe all year and let the lads learn on the job.

The only way you learn European football is by playing games and getting to the point where you start to absorb lessons. The manager knows he’s got talented young players who are going to be with the club for a number of years, and I think that this year has almost been a step back to go forwards in Europe. You get the fruits of your labour eventually and these lads have huge talent, but for now it’s all learning and getting experience.

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My Album Of The Month (December 2011)

My Bloody Valentine (Loveless 1991)

Landmark in the history of Shoegazing genre. I like the dynamism spread in this album. The rhythm and tempo is splendid and the vocals are catchy. It’s interesting to know what a huge sound engineering process has been behind this project, at cost of approximately 250,000 $.