Eyes

"I see the sadness in their eyes
Melancholy in their cries
Devoid of all the passion
The human spirit cannot die
Look at the pain around me
This is what I cry for
Look at the pain around me
This is what I'll die for "


Iced Earth

Progress Note 2:55am

Getting a little slower but i won't give up.
I made myself some brazilian coffee "Pilao" little by little i'm getting used to its taste.
Now getting closer tp harder parts of my articles.
Trying to keep the pace

Progress Note on My Writing

It's gone very well till now (1:44 am) i ' ve just finished Materials & Methods,gonna continue now with itroduction of IBS model.Our previous paper is a big help.
Time matters the most right now.Long night ahead of me .

Write ! Write ! Write !

These days i experience a heavy load of pressure;due to postponed projects and papers, i started writing IBS thing on Sunday ;gonna continue tonight.I must add two case reports which will be discussed with Dr Taslimi.
I also confirmed my French class which will begin on Saturday April 17th,and is planned for a weekly basis .
Right now the wisest use of time is needed to end this gap till my millitary service .

Chimeric Principles Of Flesh

And i see him
Shouting
Loudly
Across my bed
Clinging his hand to mine
My corpse
Still ;yet breathing vigorously
I can recognize the face
The cuddly arms
But i can't obey the rules
Paralyzed...


And i see him...


Scratching his face
Trying to show me...
...a signal
...a slight motion
but i couldn't 




and i can't
Since then,
I've walked this bleak road 
Looking for the man,
Who once  stood above my bed-time fairies
He ; who wanted to embrace my dusty soul
and
Cut these soilent roots


The man who weeped for me
That day.


Pedram / April 10 / 2010
image : Black Spirit ;Don't Let Go

United Eliminated

...it's a very distressful night; it gets worse when you watch the players playing their best in the first half , but i think Olic's late strike  in 43th minute gave them the momentum to lead the game(unfortunately).
One more thing that hurt me  tonight was listening to these undereducated hired as analyst and commentator (Iranian National  TV is absolutely intolerable). As i don't have access to satelite and this National (!) TV is rushing to become a complete nonsense; i used to enjoy watching some football matches ...
Actually i found this common character in all iranian people today ; they back the  winners ; i mean success and wealth comes first ...it might be considered as a positive point but you know as long as i 've observed it harshly blinds one's insight   .

So;
Man United made a dramatic heart-breaking farewell :(

Man United vs Bayern Munich

Feeling a bit nervy; Manchester United vs Bayern Munich in an hour;
Sir Alex decided a 4-5-1 
i've got a strange feeling that Berbatov will show his worth tonight...

Bring It On

Internship finished ;
It's definitely a landmark in my life as a hard working period came  to a close but...
It wasn't a remarkable sensational finish.Reason or reasons are still unknown for me ;  a flair-up of my GAD is the most probable in  my mind.
This experience once again showed how i lack concentration in decisive terminal moments of a course.It's something in my mind which i must correct as soon as possible.
I'd spent about 8 days of fantastic trip to Mashad ;enjoyed my time there with my family in absolute peace.
A simple mistake ; in a glimpse ruined all the joy..and i'm to blame
Through these days i've built up an attitude toward my mistakes and a combative response is guaranteed;It's a part of my character right now And that's how i'm  looking  to the future;as a life to reach my goals is an accolade path;There are problems on my way awaiting me ; they can be interpreted as opportunities to grow one's wisdom;as challenges you can test your personality as you get over them.I want to fight and also enjoy .
I must stop all the bobbles;interrupting my evolution;
I criticize myself more openly all the time ; cause i want to grow .


" Even if one's head were to be suddenly cut off, he should be able to do one more action with certainty. With martial valor, if one becomes like a revengeful ghost and shows great determination, though his head is cut off, he should not die." Ghost Dog Screenplay