Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage

You're not Alone

It's just like him

To wander off in the evergreen park

Slowly searching

For any sign of the ones he used to love

He says he's got nothing left to live for

(He says he's got nothing left)

And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone

There is more to this I know

You can make it out

You will live to tell

She's just like him

Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies she's been fed

And she's searching for no one (but herself)

Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy, that she is here

And this time I think you'll know

You're not alone

There is more to this I know

You can make it out

You will live to tell

You're not alone

There is more to this i know

You can make it out (there is more to know)

You're not alone

There is more to this i know

You can make it out

You will live to tell

You're not alone

There is more to this i know

You can make it out

You will live to tell

You are not alone

You're not, you're not alone

Saosin

simple plan

I have severe plan to buy a camera

it's my main target to end my holidays

My Ricoh served well but its time to find sth new,easier to handle...

unfortunately my mobile phone camera is also out of order since July,i also have difficulties connecting my phone to my pc,the sofware doesnt operate properly,i've lost alot of valuable pictures of last winter and spring.

Besides i feel a go inside about photogtraphy,i feel now i'm the man who distingushes moments deserve to be freezed in

anyway the problem is i have to idea about the brands(thinking about Canon primarily) but i realy lack knowledge and i couldnt find a useful source to observe compatible to Iran's market.

Probably i will face false prices and i need a guide to work that out.

Basking under a Blacksun Dawning

I feel a blacksun

Cast upon my withered brow

The dancing of embers

Peace of eternal flight

The deepest of blue

In crimson night

Shdows my russet skin

In views beyond a winter gate

Vivid days of a child

Green are the trees of age

My love for the everlasting sky

Foreboding flames abode

I will dream under a blacksun

No shelter to hide my skin

Tainted rain will taste so pure

Like black painted earth

I can see beyond my time

Cast my disgrace on fall

Foretell my name in honor

Under a black dawning sun

an H1N1 case(Images)

a 29 yr old man with fever + respiratory distress

Fig1A: consolidation in right upper lobe

Fig1B:[Taken 2 days later] Progression (new consolidations in left upper lobe and both lower lobes)

Lung windows from axial CT of the chest w/o contrast show bilateral multifocal consolidation(panels A through D) and paratracheal prevascular ,hilar and subcarinal LAP(arrows)

@NEJM

Brume

a lot to do, a little messy , getting through this,i have expand the time table

a lot of studies,long run ahead , all i need is finding the rythm,i have to concentrate,

i must press on,

i must get over this,

i declare war against these barren days !

The Orphans of Piety

Fire dance of self deprecation dopamine receptivity

the orphans of piety we are birthed into sorrow and shame

a truth to believe a thirst for reprieve

our throats scorched with the sins of our fathers

we burn with the sins of our fathers

These sacred certainties floated right past me and I cannot remember my name

Scandalous proclivity these orphans of piety

We cherish our reprimand pain in your shadow where I stand

Draw a circle around me in the sand I have breathed in but released your lungs

Of Ave Maria's from wombs of the one I have wandered each day

From the alter to the grave in search of your name and face

I have seen your shadow where I stand

words : Minsk

Photo : Gelareh Haghighi

Connected Again

This violence left supressed anger inside of me.

you know it's a pivotal period,days to be remembered

it's hard to concentrate , what am i to do?

scared ,lonely and confused,

there's no chance for practice and theory to meet

in this boiling corner of world

as i'm living here...

in

so cold,i can't concentrate

Black

Put on ur blackest suit,i mean the whitest black one

The color of today

Join milions ,aha?

All right...

Serve yourself with tears

It unburdens

Soothing? self mutilation?

You don't believe in Judgement, do you?

You don't believe in anything,i think...oh

Sorry i forgot

Nuptial Procession

One true power

Charmed? ain't u ?

I guess you love the color of today

It reminds you of knowledge,hah?

yeah...Knowledge

The mass moves

Look at them

Their faces ;

They 've worn desperate masks

scum overflows

Just drop the book

As long as Carnal intelligence rules

You win

A winner with tearful eyes

Your tears fall

Charmed?

aha?

yeaah

I know

I was wrong

There's one thing you strictly believe in

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sunn 0))) - "It’s like an onion, man, all the layers and shit." | INTERVIEWS | Tiny Mix Tapes

Better Days

And you asked me what I want this year
And I'll try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe
We'll find better days

'Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
Designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe
We'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
'Cause tonight's the night
The world begins again

I need someplace simple where we could live
And something only you could give
And that's faith and trust and peace while we're
Alive

And the one poor child who saved this world
There's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll
Find better days

Gao Xing Jiang Ink Paintings

Penumbra>>>>Gao Xing Jiang---Chinese ink on paper 2007

Momentary Eclipse of Hope

I saw you crowned as sun

I touched your burning hand

And looked at the sky

Towards your greedy shine

I thought you were a god

On the solar throne

But you have just burned my eyes

I worship your gilded sky

Where the clouds in grief are crying

Blood and the rain on my hands

On my blind eyes

Lakes sacrifice their silent waters

To glorify your beauty

In my mouth taste of blood

A taste of godless pain

Are you a God,are you human suffering

That brings us the pain?

In gardens of his promised paradise

We are desperately searching for immortality

Prisoners of our blindness

My mouth is full of blood

Iam swallowing desperation with

Holy forgiveness

I can't stand this pain

I am crying my eyes on my hands

Little son staring at you

When you face an exception,calm down !

Can you hear me?

He wants respect like any individual,

Blame your missed chances ,

Your modesty,

So.

if you feel so low

inferior

consider this a chance to grow,

Improve yourself,

instead of being destructive

I know you don't understand

call the wayward one

back home

Sir Alex Ferguson's debut

Although the Reds had taken just one point from Ferguson's opening two games, at Oxford and Norwich, the new manager's debut programme notes laid bare his mantra. "Taking over a club of magnitude of Manchester United is an awesome prospect," he wrote. "But ultimately a football club is a football club and I shall simply try to run things at Old Trafford in what I believe to be the right way. I am not really interested in what has happened here in the past. I don't mean any disrespect to the great achievements of Manchester United over the years. It's simply that now there is only one way to go, and that is forward."

manutd.com

the Might of Art

It was the first time i found this feeling about art,maybe the first time someone showed this in pictures;a honest dazzling film;

The movie is about former well-known painter Fernhofer who interrupted his grand project "La Belle Noiseuse"10 years ago. Reason?yet to be discovered! He lives with his wife Liz in a castle cast away.

The young couple nicolas (a young painter) and his spouse Marrianne have planned to visit Fernhofer; Nicolas used to admire Fernhofer;but they face Master's bizarre behavior and fianlly Fernhofer perposed Marriane to become his model to resume the dusty ambition.

The movie shows 17-18 min of pure painting;not to mention it's a long movie(about 4hr length) ,so it needs patience definitly;but so rewarding,i mean it becomes an outstanding journey with Fernhofer and the painting process wich resembles the knowing and the suffering due to it.

There are certain scenes that raise the feeling of sympathy with the artist;as you see him unable to direct his source of inspiration to canvas.

To lead performances have been highly praised (Michel Piccoli as Fernhofer and Emmanuelle Beart as Marianne),but i think Jane Birkin (playing the role of Fernhofer 's wife;Liz) plays a key role in the whole movie.

Finally : it's about a 4 hour epic about art,love,sacrifice.

Azure

I wander , crestfallen

Nomad ,

Children ;laughing at me

Inside:

I see this growing

Pain,

Sweet pain,

Memories ;to parade,

Happiness....ah

How transient,

What's this?

A fever?,The disease of the aging?

or

Tears i shed

Overflown ?

I see these growing,

from the inside,amid the flames

Outside;

They want to stone me

I don't even frown,

I can't run away?

or i 'm open the pain?

They awake no hatred ,no anger,

not a simple sense in me

They can provoke,

Walking far from each other

At the edge of time,

They shout at me,

"Nomad...Loser...Run away...show us how far "

"show us"

"Unless you can fly away"

I feel these,

My Wings,

I reach the beautiful plateau,

Magic balance

Peace

Silence;splendid

There's kindness,mercy for all

It seems glowing hearts of martyrs,

Enlightened the sky,

Now I stretch my wings,

but

suddenly

Dust blurs my sight,

It's doubt,again

Am i to fail?

Turbulant waves of knowledge

Push me forwaed,

I close my eyes,

I take a deep breath,

I can't feel my flesh,

I'm gliding

Megin Runar

I find my flowers on paths astray

Megin runar on paths well hid and torch lit

So rise snakes of the golden secret gleam

Thou phantoms of the midnight

The darkness sways for my eyes like a moth , a moth

Mysteries subtle and secret , to dim to touch

So rise thou spirits of the midnight gleam

In thy most secret cloaks and signs

Touch the night with your invoking

So raven black at heart

To dark for speech

And hidden from the eye

The glow the ritual the wonder

Solitude loneliness , megin runar

The darkness sways for my eyes like a moth, a moth

Mysteries subtle and secret , to dim to touch

Solitude , Loneliness

Megin runar

of the Wand and the Moon

pic : Kim Larsen

Sublime

Many times i wept,

This doubt,

Inside

Eager to unwind,

Still...

You're there

I'm sure you're there

But no one is aware,

The eyes seek excuses,

Yet the mighty heart ,

Rescues us,

There's a dim light,

It lingers ,

But never dies

More than Meets the Eye

My Recent Movies;

1-The Pianist---Roman Planski 2002 (9/10)

2-Schindler's List---Steven Spielberg 1993 (9/10)

3-SAving Private Ryan---Steven Spielberg 1998 8/10

4-La Belle Noiseuse---Jacques Rivette 1991 (9/10)

5-Face to Face---Ingmar Bergman 1976 (7/10)

6-Saraband---Ingmar Bergman2003 ( 9/10)

7-Dune---David Lynch1984 (6/10)

8-Love in the Time of Cholera---Mike Newell2007 (4/10)

9-Syriana---Stephen Gaghan2005 (5/10)

10-My Favorite Season---Andre Techine1993 (7/10)

11-Scent of A Woman---Martin Brest1992 (8/10)

I'll write a review about some of them (specially #4)

Movies added to my Archive

Unfortunately i've lost some of my prolific connections (to whom i referred for movies) guys used to be my friends and they have dazzling knowledge about their business.

The acessable options are really hard to deal with;they don't understand any thing but the green language! But that was the only way and i was in the real need.

so on wednesday after 2 days of checking the list (and i have to say their archive didnt cover many of my priorities) i selected these six movies and ordered them:

1-Awakenings---Penny Marshall 1990

2-Andrei Rublyov---Andrei Tarkovsky 1966

3-The Basketball Diaries---Scott Kalvert 1996

4-One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest---Milos Forman 1975

5-The Nightmare Before Christmas---Tim Burton/Henry Selick 1994

6-Red-Beard(Akahige)---Akira Kurosawa 1965

>>>these movies still remain in my Thank-List:

1-The Invention of Lying---Ricky Gravis/Matthew Robinson 2009

2-The Panic in Needle Park---Jerry Scalzberg 1971

3-Code Unknown---Michael Haneke 2000

4-Process de Jeanne D'aRc---Robert Bresson 1962

5-The WAges of Fear(Le salaire de la peur)---Henry-Georges Clouzot 1953

6-Mother and Son(Mat i Syn)---Aleksandr Sokurov 1999

See-Saw

Marigolds are very much in love,but he doesn't mind,

Picking up his sister,he makes his way into the seas or land,

all the way she smiles,

She goes up while he goes down,down,

Sits on a stick in the river,

Laughter in his sleep,

Sister's throwing stones ,hoping for a hit,

He doesn't know so then,

She goes up while he goes down,down,

Another time,another day,

A brother' sway to leave,

Another time,another day,

She'll be selling plastic flowers on a sunday afternoon,

Picking up weeds,she hasn't got time to care,

All can see he's not there,

She grows up for another man ,and he's down,

Another time,another day,

A brother's way to leave,

Another time,another day,

A brother's way to leave

Pink Floyd

pic : Nathalie Gumpertz (Jessie Bear) carries a weighty secret in “Preparations.”